Thursday, July 1, 2010

....goodbye grandma, till we meet again

my sweet, beloved grandma
went to sleep with the angels
this morning around 9:40.
she had been hanging on for
a while now and we all knew it was
simply a matter of time.

i dreamt of her last night....

we talked, said several
"i love yous", hugged and kissed.

she held my "SEEK" painting
in her hands.....tenderly
looking at it.

it was BEAUTIFUL and i felt
a big blanket of comfort
enveloping me
and the absolute sureness
of knowing
"she really really loves me".

i knew it was her way of
coming to me and saying goodbye.

i'm the only one in my family
that lives far away and the last couple
of days have been hard for me....

a feeling of helplessness
knowing i am here
and everyone
else is there.

i am ever so grateful
for that dream...

for that time shared just between her and i.

she was really somethin special!!!!
a total kick in the pants...
probably one of the biggest
(if not...the biggest)
cubs fans i have ever known,
a lover of coca-cola classic,
a social bug,
someone who never forgot a name,
a wonderful cook
(her homemade noodles were to die for!),
creative in so many ways,
hard worker,
lover of her sweet little yorkies
and someone who loved her
family unconditionally.

i will miss her with all that i am,
but i know she is in a better place.
and i am so much better for having her
as my grandma....

and i know
we will meet again.

thank you all for visiting me....
your friendship means the world to me.

i will be heading back home to illinois
to be with my family.

wishing you all a wonderful holiday weekend
please be safe and

sending love


  1. Kolleen,
    I am so sorry for your loss; What a remarkable woman! Sounds like you two were kindred spirits~
    Words can never be enough, but you and your family are in my thoughts n' prayers~

  2. Kolleen,
    My prayers will be with you..It sound like amazing woman run in your family....I send you a big hug and tons of love...Gloria

  3. I wish i knew what to say that didn't sound trite..
    love is all we take with us..your grandma left you a legacy ..pass it on..

  4. Sorry for your loss Kolleen, she sounded like a fabulous woman!!

    Hugs for you

    Micki x

  5. Dear Kolleen:
    What a wonderful tribute to your grandma. To have someone so special in your life is such a blessing and you will treasure memories of her always.
    I will say a prayer for you and your grandma.

  6. dearest kolleen, what a gift your grandma gave you w/this dream visit & her love for you! what do you suppose her holding "seek" meant?/sooo intriguing & sacred/special forever! love the big blanket feeling you shared.
    safe travels to you now to ill. & i'm guessing you'll pack this blanket & i pray it covers you & your family w/comfort & all you need.
    oh, you'll be so much nearer to me & yet far i'd love to streeeeetch over w/a big hug! ooooooooooooo

  7. Oh, dearest Kolleen, I am so sorry for your loss, but also filled with joy at the dream you had and the connection between you and your grandmother. My beloved grandma has been gone for over 20 years and she still visits me like that in my dreams. Every one of them meaningful and every time I know we truly connected. I have a feeling this wasn't the last dream visit from your grandma! I will be with you in my thoughts as you spend time with your family! Much love and a big hug! Silke

  8. Dear Sweet Kolleen, I sent you an email. I love you so much. I love that she came to you in a dream, my grandma Helen did too, but I didn't recognize her the first two times..then my mom showed me a photo of her when she was in her 20's and oh my!! I recognized her the next time she appeared in my dream!!! Love,love, love you.

  9. dreams have a way of making your heart wishes come true. this is only the first of more to come. your love for one another is boundless. sending you light and love to take with you and share with your family.

  10. What a beautiful love story! My heart aches for the loss of such a special woman in your life, but also smiles knowing you shared such a tender and loving relationship with your sweet grandma. My gramma visited me in a dream after she died, and I will fondly remember it forever.

    Sending you hugs and kisses and love and light, dahling :)

  11. oh, i'm so sorry for your loss.

    the dream you had is so great tho and i'm so glad you had that!


  12. I am so sorry about your Grandma. She sounds like she had a full and happy life! I'm sure she loved you dearly and she knows you loved her as well~ Enjoy your time in Illinois with the family. I am one state over from you (Missouri) and I'll be thinking of you :)

  13. Oh, Kolleen, this gave me goosebumps. You have expressed your love and memories of your sweet grandma perfectly and they are here for all to see and share in. That will help, yes, it will!! And you know already that she will continue to live in your heart. Best to you in your travels - my love and thoughts go with you!!

  14. sending huge hugs my dear.
    hope you got my voicemail.
    i love you
    i KNOW your grandma came to you in that dream.
    it just has to be beautiful like that don.t you think.
    enjoy your family on monday.

  15. I am sorry for your loss. I can hear how special she was to you and how much you loved her.

    My heart is with you.


  16. So sorry to hear about losing your sweet Grandma. What a gift to have been visited by her in your dream and to have shared your LOVE, your words and your hugs...

    Sending you LOVE xo

  17. Dear Kolleen,
    Sorry to hear of the passing of your grandma. I am so glad you had that dream. It sounds very comforting for you. Peace and love to you and your family.

  18. So sorry for your loss. ♥ She sounds so cool. And to know she for sure loved you - what a gift! ♥♥♥♥♥

  19. i am so sorry to read these words dear kolleen. i am sending you peace and love and light as you walk this next path of your journey...

    my grandpa was a big cubs fan too...i can hear him saying "cubs win! cubs win!" and when they do, i always smile and think of him. i bet you will always do the same when thinking of your grandmother...
    much love...

  20. Kolleen I feel like I have abandoned you lately. So sorry of your lose. Wow what a wild year. God be with you my dear. I love ya,Debbie

  21. I am so sorry for your loss. In my prayers~

  22. What a beautiful sweet post. Dreams like the one that you had are healing gifts, what a special thing to hold dear. Love to you!

  23. Dearest Kolleen,
    My thoughts are with you... I am so sorry for your loss. You are such a special soul. I love that she visited you + held you + your dear painting. When I was a child my aunt died suddenly, and came to visit me one night. I woke to her there looking angelic + I had my chance to say goodbye. I feel for you my sweet friend. I wish I could be there to give u a hug. Sending so much love + light, Carissa.

  24. Until you see your grandmother again, may she always live in your heart.

  25. This is such a lovely rememberance of your grandmother. May she rest in peace and shine down upon us all. Sounds like she was an amazing lady. Love you Kolleen!

  26. i am so sorry for the sadness that has come you way. Grandmother's are such sweet treasures and I am sorry for your great loss.

    I believe in sweet dreams such as yours. so beautiful.

  27. I've gotten so nostalgic by that dream of urs cuz it reminds my of my sweetheart granny which died last year and I miss her the same way you do...

  28. I am really sorry for your loss <3

    I came here to thank you for your comment at our blog, Home Fairies.

    I hope you'll be ok, she's in a better place now. *

  29. This is such a sweet post. I'm sure your grandma is in a happy place :D

  30. Oh Kolleen - sending you lots of love in this tough time. you are well loved.

  31. I'm sending you so much love Kolleen. xoxo

  32. i am so sorry to hear about your grandma. i believe you are right about her visiting you in her dreams. powerful. i love you. know that.


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