Wednesday, March 3, 2010

....today

i realize today is wednesday and i typically have my “say whaaaaaaaaaaaaat wednesday” question...however, not today.


normally i try not to get very opinionated or even too personal on my blog.


today is going to be different.


today i am sad.

today i am outraged with our judicial system.

today a monster will go in front of a judge for a horrifying crime, it seems he most likely committed.

today i don’t understand why such tragedies happen.

today i am hugging my children tighter and more than usual.

today i am grateful for all the moments i have with them.

today i won’t get annoyed with the messy bathroom sink full of toothpaste from my rushed teenager or the dirty clothes scattered about Soph and Syd's room or the fingerprints all over the fridg from Chandler.

today i will be thankful these messes...this proof they are around...are here.

today i am praying for Chelsea’s mom and dad, our family and friends.

today i am seeking out comfort.


thank you to each and every one of you for stopping by and visiting me and praying throughout the last several days. it is appreciated more than i can put into words. please continue to pray for comfort and ease for Chelsea’s parents and justice to be served.


i only hope this wakes people up and hopefully there will be change to how we handle sex offenders in this country. i hope this makes us all a bit more aware of our surroundings. i hope to someday find understanding in all of this...but know... that will not be today.


xxoo



28 comments:

  1. Oh, honey, I'm so sorry! Heartbroken that it happened at all to such a young woman, but even more so that it happened to someone in your family. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and heart!! Much love, Silke

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  2. I am so sorry! It is just so horrible and I agree hold onto your kiddies tight. Still in my thoughts and prayers.
    xo,
    Dana

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  3. I am angry also, they needed to keep him in prison and take measures to prevent him from hurting any one. We came to this earth knowing there would be hurt and pain,Whyyyyyyyyyyy we cry inside.Today and many days will be so hard, I am so sorry,I hurt for you. (God is good.) People make their own choices, some good some bad.
    I love you sweet girl,hang in there.
    Love,Debbie

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  4. Kolleen amor, my heart hurts for you and your family...my girls kept her in their prayers as well, when I had to tell them she was found...I saw the heartbreak...and the fear in their eyes...they were reflecting my husbands and my own...I too am angry because there is no sense to this...she IS such a beautiful child and the love of her parents life, it was evident to the world just how much she is loved...Know that I am thinking of you and your family...and your right...I have nothing to complain about in my home...nothing is so important as knowing they are safe.. Take care amor, you are in my thoughts and my heart! Much love, hugs and besos to you. Rose

    ps...I would ask to call and speak to you personally but amor at this time I sound like a frog :( But if you need to talk at anytime...any hour, know you can call me, If you need to, I will email you my phone number ..take care amor. Rose

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  5. Oh girl...my heart is sick and heavy. Prayers going up this very second for you and your entire family.

    Pleading with the Most High for answers...

    Love to you~Rebecca

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  6. its awful how our children are just victims, and now all the focus and time and money will go for him..I know from expecience, your friends will just need you to be there. our system is not a good one, victims are usually put aside for the murder. my heart goes out to them, and you are right, hug your children and don't worry about the little things!!!!

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  7. i've been thinking a lot about you this week and am sending you so much love.

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  8. I am so saddened by this news and am holding the family in my prayers.

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  9. kolleen, i'm so sad to hear the news. i was hoping for the best. this has hit me harder than i thought it would, just outrages me that this can happen. we need to change the laws, chelsea deserved better, and so did her family.
    just know you are all i think about lately. watch those girls of yours, hold them tight.
    love you dear friend. love you so much. i know your heart is broken right now.
    hugs,
    kelly

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  10. I was so very sorry when I heard this news on the Today Show this morning. I immediately thought of you and your dear family. Life is so precious, isn't it? I pray for the family of this beautiful young lady who had her whole life in front of her. It just isn't fair. I hope justice is carried out somehow.
    God Bless,
    Cris

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  11. Koleen, take care of all your family, hug and kiss them all lots...this news is NOT right...no one deserves this especially your loving family.
    Our prayers are with you.
    Char

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  12. my thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

    along with so much love.

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  13. I am so so sorry...Rest in HIM.
    rene'

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  14. Honey i feel so terrible. Hug them tight my sweetness. xxx

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  15. I have come here by way of sweet Rose at BellaRosa and have tears in my eyes. So awful to imagine and so hard to comprehend. I can understand your pain and your anger completely. I pray for peace and understanding for Chelsea's family. And pray that justice will be served. Many blessings, Tammy

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  16. I just found out today since there is no TV or internet here..I am actually stealing someones right now I think...I am so sorry for this loss of such a beautiful human being..There are no words that can make anyone feel better..I will be praying for her family consistantly now..we can ony hope that it doesnt happen again...It sucks...I am with you 100% ..this was not ok....love you..

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  17. My heart aches at this news. I am so sorry. Prayer and thoughts are with you.

    I am 100% with you on the rant too!

    Now I am going to hug my kiddos again.

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  18. Dearest Kolleen,
    I'm deeply sad about it and I'm praying for this beautiful angel Chelsea and her family. My thoughts are with you darling.
    Take care sweetie and you have all my love!
    A big hug for you.
    Giovanna
    www.bohomarket.blogspot.com

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  19. My heart and prayers are with you all..Im with you on the gratitude as well...!!

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  20. So sad, I'm visiting from Bella Rosa. I don't know you or your family but my heart goes out to you and your love ones. May God and His Grace keep you in this situation. A lot of people was praying and feel your loss, as a matter of fact my friend stop by my shop today and we discussed the news and the fact that we want to go and hug our kids and wished we can keep them safe always. Still, God is good and He will keep us, even in the mist of a world that can be evil and violent. Take care and the grace of God over you and your family, today and always.Blessings, Marta.

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  21. oh kolleen, i'm just sick...absolutely sick over such terrible news. i am so sorry you and your family are going through such an unbelievable tragedy. keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers. xoxox...jenn

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  22. I just popped over from Chrissy's blog and was so sad to see this. As a mother to a teenage daughter it really hits home. My heart goes out to you and her family. Sending love and prayers to you from Oregon. ♥
    Love,
    Jenny

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  23. I have just come over via Rose, and want to say how very sorry I am to hear of the tragic news.
    I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers.

    Hugs
    Carolyn

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  24. You are in my thoughts...there really are no words that can soothe this kind of hurt. God is near.

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  25. I am here via Rose and I just want to extend my heart and say how sorry I am. My prayers are with you and your family. Such sadness can only be comforted by love. Please accept my prayer for strength, peace and comfort from our Heavenly Father who now holds Chelsea.
    Peace to you
    Rebecca

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  26. Hello Dear Kolleen Sweetie...
    I have come here by way of sweet Rose at BellaRosa and have such sadness in my heart. So awful to imagine and so hard to comprehend. How could they have ever let this animal out? When will our justice system listen to us when we tell them there is no place for monsters like this, we can NOT rehabilitate them and put them back into our society.

    I pray for peace and understanding for Chelsea's family. I will be holding Chelsea's family and yours sweetie up in prayer for peace, strength and understanding from our Heavenly Father. Justice will be served as Our Father is hearing so many of our prayers as we send them up to him.

    Please keep us posted sweetie. Peace be to all of you. Country hugs, Sherry

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  27. I am so very sorry for your loss, I do not understand the evils of this world and our judical system fails so many people. My prayers are with you and the family. God Bless Theory a country gal in Iowa. I too hope God takes this man away

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